Why is it okay?

A few hours ago I started watching a movie.  This movie is one I have seen only once before.  I didn't remember much about it and definitely not the way they talk about woman in the first 60 seconds of the movie.  The first seconds are women talking about a Man and how he was to them. How  Awesome and great but never contacting them again. Essentially they all were talking about the same man and their sexual relations. Then it switches to that man and a friend and out come sexual innuendos every few seconds.   I got up and walked out.  I couldn't take it anymore and had to leave. 

When did it become okay and acceptable that Woman were to be loved one night and then left? 

When did it be okay for woman to accept this for themselves?

Why is it okay to make sexual comments over and over again?

Yes I am asking myself this!

Obviously I know that for some time society thinks its okay but why do we go along with it? Watching and laughing along with everyone else and acting like its part of life. 

Yes I know its been this way for some time and woman even do the same thing.  But seriously what we watch influences us as people.  Eventually we become like what we put into ourselves or what we are around.  Is that something I want to become or to be around? NO!

I really need to watch what I see through my eyes and hear through my ears and say through my mouth.  If I am going to be an example for others and live a life for the Lord then what is acceptable to the world isn't what I am going to agree with. 

How does this kind of movie make a woman feel?  How do these words affect society, young children watching, teenage girls, teenage boys???

Just something to think about. 

Snack

Here is my afternoon snack! Forgot to mention that I put slivered raw almonds too!

Day 1 of Restart

So far today has gone well. With starting a new morning family and changing eating its a good combo. I'm learning that when I want something at a particular time it doesn't mean I need it. Gettin up early was hard and in a few weeks it will be an hour earlier but I can do this.

I started out with a simply GOgurt yogurt tube because I was running late I also had maybe 10 snap crisps before I left. Snack at 10:25 carrots & celery (portioned bags) w/small amount ranch dip, and a small thing of simply fruit gummy things. Lunch Lentil Soup with an apple. Afternoon snack around 3:30 is trail mix that I made, lightly salted peanuts-raisins-leftover sesame honey cashews-raw cranberry nut mix. Mixed them all and made into small portioned containers. Dinner is salad with chicken and home canned peaches. I'll post photos when I remember them haha. :-) Snack after dinner will be cheese and 6 organic blue corn tortilla chips.

Denial as the Months have past

I was desperate for help so I posted a Wanted sign on my facebook page seeking a person to help me in my weight loss journey.  Someone that understands, someone who cares about me, someone who doesn't want to see me fail and lastly someone who loves the Lord.  After many appreciated responses I chose someone whom I never thought would have replied.  Dottie from my church sent me a message about helping me and being an accountability partner the way she wrote her message just spoke to me so I chose her.  I asked another friend Becky to maybe help me with exercise.  I am Thankful to all of the people who replied and grateful for friends who care about me.

I will be Joining Cascade Pool in the end of this month when my gym membership gets cancelled!

More to come as the days and weeks progress, I will try and see if I can set up my mobile phone to start blogging from in moments of triumph and moments of weakness!

Blessings and Love to everyone for your support and interest in my well being!
In Christ
Janette

Confession #2

I need a new plan and to truely take time to plan it.  I was proud of myself for not eating dessert last night at church! Yay me! :)

The shocking truth (really not so shocking but when you are in denial it is) when a little child says "you have a big belly," or "why are you so big," or "you are FAT," or "you have a fat belly," that may be truth but it still hurts. 

When I was in High school as a freshman I was at a school that had a preschool with an observation room and everything set up for students interested in children and child development.  So I was in that class of course (if you knew me you would understand I've been a Nanny a long time) and I would go into the preschool room as a helper occasionally.  Well this one boy was really blunt and blurted out "You're FAT" and I was hurt by it.  He was telling the truth but to have someone yell it out like that loudly in the air made my heart skip a beat and then pound faster. This little boy didn't have a wonderful home life and I'm sure was exposed to all kinds of things but he did speak the truth.  I'm sure he was 31/2yrs old or so.  I've never forgotten that and maybe have embraced those words. 

Well I am here today to renounce that which was spoken over me and to stop being in denial about it all.  I can ignore how I look but other people can't.  I'm here to confess that I am Perfectly the way God made me and I am going to take care of my physical body.  I may look large right now but as I get free from the hold of sin I will become who God made me to be.  I have Christs strength in me so I can do anything. Praise the LORD!

A begining but NO end. I mean YES it will have an end though hmmm

I'm one of those people who start something and rarely finish it.  So I haven't been on here because I avoid it like the plague. Which in fact is not smart.  Especially since this blog helps me so you can assume that I have not been doing good since I last posted since I have been silent.  Silence means I have been making wrong choice and want to avoid reality therefore food is my escape.  I get frustrated at myself and then go into despair and revert back to eating poorly because I am tired emotionally drained or ect... I have been making an effort the last two days to get up at 5:30 and I like it.  That just means I must go to bed earlier and I like that feeling.  I need to have a plan in order to succeed and am trying to act out that plan this week.  Thinking ahead before meals and making sure I have healthier options rather than junk food or eat too much.  Water is my friend!

I swam an hour yesterday (actually 1 hr 45 min but take 45 min off for the not very active times)
I walked 1.5 miles as well

Today I swam 45 minutes 

Tomorrow hoping to swim and maybe a walk in the AM

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Listen

Wrote this today

People do not understand
Life is like a band
Different sounds to hear
Bombarding us from everywhere

Open your ears and listen
There might be somethin you're missin
When that sound becomes perfection
We're headed in the right direction

When chaos surrounds
That still small voice abounds
Why be distracted
We need to be interacted

Waiting for us to respond
To create that unique bond
Will you unite with the Holy Spirit
Don't look at your own merit

Instructions to us is brought
No excuses wanted, not even I forgot
Willing and open we must be
Whats on the line, Eternity

Choices we make today
Effect us along the way
Choose wisely what you do
Communication is important for you

We've got him right by our side
It's so much easier if we don't hide
Following instructions is important
Our past yes will try to haunt

But like I said Listen
Only Listen
There is a voice that guides us along
To undo all of the wrong

Some cannot see
They are blinded and don't agree
That's why we listen to him
When our eyes are dim

Building our faith and setting us free
Is where he wants us to be
So open your ears right now
Of course he will show you how

Freedom is what you hear

2012 6:32AM