Confession #2

I need a new plan and to truely take time to plan it.  I was proud of myself for not eating dessert last night at church! Yay me! :)

The shocking truth (really not so shocking but when you are in denial it is) when a little child says "you have a big belly," or "why are you so big," or "you are FAT," or "you have a fat belly," that may be truth but it still hurts. 

When I was in High school as a freshman I was at a school that had a preschool with an observation room and everything set up for students interested in children and child development.  So I was in that class of course (if you knew me you would understand I've been a Nanny a long time) and I would go into the preschool room as a helper occasionally.  Well this one boy was really blunt and blurted out "You're FAT" and I was hurt by it.  He was telling the truth but to have someone yell it out like that loudly in the air made my heart skip a beat and then pound faster. This little boy didn't have a wonderful home life and I'm sure was exposed to all kinds of things but he did speak the truth.  I'm sure he was 31/2yrs old or so.  I've never forgotten that and maybe have embraced those words. 

Well I am here today to renounce that which was spoken over me and to stop being in denial about it all.  I can ignore how I look but other people can't.  I'm here to confess that I am Perfectly the way God made me and I am going to take care of my physical body.  I may look large right now but as I get free from the hold of sin I will become who God made me to be.  I have Christs strength in me so I can do anything. Praise the LORD!